Off to work, let's see how many different games I can play in my head to disengage with it. Let's see how many times I can panic without anyone noticing. I don't want to become that person who passes out at work, but somehow I may just become the next Jaye Tyler. In my head I am an unstoppable force. In my head I'm a good kisser. In my head I'm chipping away. In my head I am a god. In my head I am beauty and energy. In my head I am the ocean you'll drown in. In my head I am tired and lonely and I miss everyone. In my head I am tired. All the people at work see, however, is a foppish, smiling fool of a man. The things they don't know about me could fill libraries.